Happy Mother’s Day to all the wonderful mums out there including my own. Today is a bit of a difficult day for me. My mother and I haven’t spoken for a month now. I feel it’s for the best. With everything that has happened between us in the last couple years, it’s in my best interest as far as my health and sanity goes to cut all ties and stay away.
Our relationship isn’t the same. Things will never be the same. Until she decides to make the change and get help for her problems. Physically and mentally I can’t deal with it all anymore. But just because we aren’t speaking, it doesn’t mean that I don’t miss her and love her with all my heart. Cause I do. I love her enough to be strong and walk away from a severely toxic relationship.
I think about her almost everyday. I wonder how she’s doing? If she ever thinks about me? It kills me to not to be able to call her today and thank her for bringing me into this world. Tell her how much I love her and how much I appreciate each and everything she has done for me. But most of all how much I miss the Mum she used to be. This one’s for you Mum. I miss you and I love you.
Happy Mother’s Day.